Helpless

Stuti was by far the youngest of three children.  She was 5’10” with tanned skin and short black hair consistent with her East Indian heritage.  At 23-years-old, she had just finished one year in medical school and had a summer internship working at a hospital.  Her closest sibling in age was her 32-year-old sister Varuna, whom despite their age gap she was close to.  Although Varuna was a lawyer, she had caused some drama in the family by being a lesbian, which was not as accepted by their Guyanese parents than it is in America.  She was married to a woman who worked in the financial world named Janilsa that Stuti got along with.  Having been raised in America, Stuti couldn’t care less about Varuna’s sexual preference but she stayed out of the drama when Varuna would fight with her eldest sister and her parents.  Since Stuti had no brothers, Varuna took over as the overprotective sibling threatening any guy that hit on Stuti.  Although nobody would ever say this to Varuna, it was one thing to be a lesbian but she seemed to have a general disdain for straight men.  As far as Stuti knew, there was nothing in her past that would lead to this.  With that said, there is a large age gap between them so things could have happened before Stuti was born or when she was too young to have any understanding of what was going on.  Besides, if something did happen, it’s not like Varuna would tell Stuti.  Like all girls with overprotective family members, Stuti just went with it.  There was no point to fight it and family always came before some random guy at a bar or a club.

The weekend had come and Stuti was going out to let off steam for a long week at work.  She was putting in many hours at the hospital and felt that she earned the right to have some fun.  She told Varuna she was going out and her and Janilsa said they’d join her for drinks and dancing.  The club was fun and the three of them danced the night away.  Janilsa and Varuna understandably danced with each other more often than not, which was fine for Stuti.  She danced by herself and being as young and attractive as she was, it wasn’t long before a guy started dancing with her.  Stuti danced with a blond guy at 6’2” short hair and a fit build that seemed to be in his mid-20s.  Stuti thought he had rhythm and in this context that’s all you can really hope for.  After a little bit of dancing, the guy, whom Stuti found out was named Shawn, offered to buy her a drink.  Stuti accepted and asked for a vodka cranberry.  They went to the bar and got the drinks and found a place to sit on a couch provided on the perimeter of the establishment.  The lounge they were at were like so many in New York, where she had grown up and currently was staying and to this point it seemed like a very normal night out in New York City.  Although Stuti noticed the guy’s arm around her lying on the top of the headrest to the couch behind her neck, she had no reaction.  It was an innocent enough gesture and due to the noise of the club, close proximity seems logical in order to hear the other person talking.  Stuti also noticed Varuna walking up to them and thought nothing of it.  Stuti turned to Shawn and said, “That’s my sister coming up to us.”

Shawn got up with a smile and extended his hand in anticipation of being greeted by Varuna.  Varuna responded by putting both hands on his chest and shoving him back and saying, “Get away from my sister.”

Shawn took a couple steps back and said, “Whoa, calm down there, what’s your problem?”

“I don’t have a problem. Get the fuck away from my sister.”

“We were just having a drink, it’s not a big deal, take a chill pill”

Shawn turned to Stuti but she just sat on the couch with her head down.  She’s seen this before and there was just no use fighting Varuna on it.  Varuna slapped Shawn across the face and said, “Don’t tell me to calm down.  You can’t tell me what to do.  Leave now! Bye!”

Shawn shook his head and said, “Fine, whatever, bye” and turned towards Stuti and said, “Your sister’s fucking crazy you know that?”

Stuti just shrugged her shoulders and gave him an apologetic look.  Shawn walked out of the club and Stuti went back to drinking her vodka cranberry.  Varuna sat next to her and Janilsa took the other side.  Varuna said, “Man, what a sleaze ball.”

Stuti rolled her eyes and glared at her.  She said, “Why?  Because he didn’t like being shoved, yelled at and slapped just for talking to me and buying me a drink?”

“You’re my little sister, I don’t want guys like that hitting on you.”

“Why? He didn’t do anything wrong.”

“Whatever, who the hell hits on girls at bars anymore?  We have dating apps for that.  Nobody just picks up someone at a bar.  If you try that nowadays, you obviously have something wrong with you.”

“Didn’t you meet Janilsa at a bar?”

“That’s different. Gays pick each other up at bars all the time.  They don’t even talk, they just kind of point.  It’s much more honest, no games, no playing hard to get, just you, come here, boom done.”

“Yea, if only guys could be like that” Stuti said sarcastically. 

Varuna glared at Stuti but said nothing. After a slight pause, she said, “Come on, let’s dance.”

The night didn’t last much longer as Varuna and Janilsa wanted to catch their train to Long Island.  Stuti’s parents also lived in Long Island so she would be taking the Long Island Rail Road (LIRR) out of Penn Station as well but on different lines.  Predictably, Penn Station was filled with people coming home from a night out on the town.  Most of the girls were bare foot giving their feet some respite from dancing all night in high heels.  Stuti and Varuna always looked at this as an American thing as she and Stuti could dance all night in heels and wouldn’t even think of taking them off till they got home.  Being barefoot on public streets or dance floors was disgusting to them.  The black on the bottom of the barefoot girls’ feet confirmed this thought to them but to each their own they guessed.  What they didn’t realize was that amongst the crowd, was a blond guy watching them from a distance.

When their trains were up, Stuti said bye to Janilsa and Varuna and went towards her track while Janilsa and Varuna went toward theirs.  The blond guy followed a comfortable distance back so he could maintain eye contact but not arouse suspicion.  With the latest technology, you could now pay for a LIRR ticket using an app so it didn’t matter what train they got on, he could just buy the ticket from his phone onboard before the conductor got to him. 

Shawn didn’t go home after leaving the lounge.  He was infuriated with the girls he just met.  Obviously the one that hit him but also the one he was hitting on for doing nothing.  She didn’t back him up that he didn’t do anything.  She just let her psychotic sister go off on him.  He waited outside the lounge until they emerged and followed them.  Shawn had just recently become fit.  He grew up tall and scrawny and a little socially awkward, which was a bad combination as a kid.  He got in a lot of fights at school, which he now looked at as a good thing because it had toughened him up and he had learned how to fight the hard way.  He didn’t need martial arts classes; going to school was enough to learn self-defense.  He followed the girls to Penn Station and stood around watching them kill time before their train showed up.  As he was watching them, he contemplated which one he would follow.  At this point, he didn’t know if they’d get on separate trains but he wanted to account for all contingencies.  He decided that he’d follow the one that hit him.  After all, the one he was talking to didn’t really do anything wrong.  It isn’t too egregious to not stand up to your crazy sister against some guy you just met.  He hoped they would get on the same train but was okay if they didn’t. 

Janilsa and Varuna got on the train and Shawn followed suit.  He watched them search the aisles for unoccupied seats so they could sit together.  Shawn followed a couple people back.  Most of the people on the train were too inebriated to notice anything going on, which worked in his benefit because Varuna and Janilsa were avoiding looking at anyone because drunk people are annoying when you’re sober.  Janilsa and Varuna found an unoccupied row and sat down.    Shawn sat down next to a guy that was fighting to stay awake.  The guy glared at him when he sat down.  It was an unspoken rule on the LIRR that you don’t sit next to a stranger until you’ve walked through a few cars looking for an unoccupied row.  Clearly, the half conscious guy couldn’t know how long Shawn had been searching but nobody liked to have the row to themselves taken away from them.  The other unspoken rule, however, you don’t actually voice your frustration with it and even inebriated, the guy next to Shawn said nothing.  It wasn’t long till the train pulled up to the Valley Stream stop as that section of Long Island bordered Queens and the LIRR gets out of the five boroughs in only a couple of stops as the MTA is for getting around inside New York.  The LIRR, as the name implies, is for going to Long Island.  Varuna and Janilsa got off the train and Shawn exited out another door.  This was just reconnaissance; he wanted to get the license plate of their car so that he could stalk them later on.  To his surprise, Varuna and Janilsa walked out of the parking lot past the cars.  He followed at a distance but realized he was exposed.  Varuna and Janilsa were talking to each other and didn’t notice him.  When they turned down a side street, which was where they lived, Shawn kept walking.  They had been on the main road for about five minutes; he knew their route so any more following would just be an unnecessary risk.  Now, he had to plan.  He walked back to the train station and headed to his house.  He had some strategizing to do.

Shawn waited over a week before he executed his plan, which wasn’t too sophisticated.  He rented a minivan and parked it on the main street that Varuna and Janilsa used to walk home.  He figured that people normally get off work at around 6:30PM in New York so by the time the psycho got to Valley Stream; it should be about 7:30.  That’s when he parked the car waiting for her. 

 

Varuna had to work late today but it was like any other busy day at the office.  She was heading home looking forward to relaxing with Janilsa.  She took the train like she had been doing for most of her life and got off at Valley Stream.  She hadn’t given the blond boy at the lounge a second thought.  She had done this countless times in the past knowing that the public shame a guy would feel for hitting a woman protected her.  She loved exploiting this for all it was worth especially with Stuti.  There was no difference between the blond boy’s reaction and the boys she had done it to in the past.  Men were such cowards.  She got off the train and started her eight minute walk home.  There are always cars parked along the street in New York so one learns to ignore them.  She was a little startled when the sliding door of a minivan she was walking by opened but didn’t really think of it.  The person just parked and had passengers that were getting out.  The sound, however, did cause her to turn around to see what it was but her defenses were down.  This would prove costly.

                It was 9:00PM when Varuna finally walked by.  Shawn told himself to give it till midnight as he had nothing else to do that day.  He picked a Wednesday because he figured not many people go out on Wednesdays.  Although he was excited when he saw her, he was able to stay disciplined enough to wait for her to pass the van.  He wanted to come from behind and give her less of a chance to struggle.  He threw open the door and jumped out taking a quick step toward Varuna and wrapping his right arm around her neck from behind.  His left hand reached around the back of her head and he pressed his four fingers on the side of her head with his middle finger on her right temple.  He grabbed his left bicep with his right hand and flexed his right forearm angling it to apply the most pressure on the left ceratoid artery restricting blood to the brain.  Simple body physiology proves that if you control the neck, you control the head, which controls the body.  This is what made it easy for Shawn to drag Varuna to the van and lie back.  He had already lowered the seats so the back of the van was completely empty.  He swung her body with ease so that her legs faced the back of the van as he swung his left leg to kick the door closed.  He then wrapped his legs around Varuna’s waist squeezing her sides and pushing down to further asphyxiate her.  Varuna tried to struggle but the move was locked in tight and there wasn’t much she could do.  Struggling actually quickened Shawn’s goal.  Suddenly, Varuna’s body went limp and Shawn eased his grip with his arms and his legs but held them in place to see if Varuna was playing possum.  After about 10 seconds he put his limbs down but still alert and in position to snap the hold back on quickly.  If Varuna was going to resist, it was now.  After 30 seconds, Shawn was convinced that Varuna was indeed unconscious.  He rolled her off him and grabbed duck tape and wrapped them around her legs first over one intercrossing below and above her legs securing them individually and then wrapped them around both her ankles forcing them together.  He pulled Varuna’s hands behind her back and trapped them in the same way as her legs.  He rolled her onto her side and ripped off a strip of duct tape and pressed it against Varuna’s mouth.  He reinforced it with three more strips and then went into Varuna’s purse.  He removed her cell phone and hopped into the driver seat and drove off.  He lowered the window a little bit and threw Varuna’s cell phone out the window.    The whole encounter lasted about two minutes.

                Varuna awoke before Shawn got to his house.  She squirmed but there wasn’t much she can do with her bondage.  Shawn parked the car in his garage and exited.  He went into Varuna’s purse and pulled out her driver’s license.  He said, “Hmmm, the address on your license is nowhere near Valley Stream.  Something tells me that’s where your parents live.  Stuti is a med student so probably living at home.  Shawn smiled as he let the implication filter in.  Varuna was squirming trying to say something but came off as just moans from beneath the duck tape.  When Shawn made the implication, her entire body went limp and she was speechless.  Shawn smiled and Varuna felt her eyes water.  She didn’t cry often but helpless situations like this make it difficult not to.  She wished she wasn’t gagged as she was a lawyer after all, she could talk her way out of this.

                Janilsa was worried when Varuna didn’t come home but she didn’t realize she was gone till the next day.  She didn’t want to call Varuna’s parents as they still weren’t too okay with Varuna and Janilsa being married.  Relations were strained but at least Varuna’s parents showed up to the wedding.  This couldn’t be said about Janilsa’s mother.  She decided she’d wait before she called Stuti as she didn’t want to unnecessarily panic anyone.  Varuna normally was very good about responding to her phone though but since Janilsa wasn’t, she decided not to overreact. 

                Stuti had no idea that Varuna had been kidnapped the night before when she headed home.  She had spent the day hanging out with friends but now it was time to go home.  When she parked her car in the driveway, she didn’t bother to look around.  This was her parent’s home so it was the most safe she probably would feel. She opened her car door and got out of the car.  Her hand was on the door to shut it when she lost her grip reacting to pressure on her neck.  Before she knew it, she was back in her car lying on someone that had their limbs wrapped around her.  She kicked at air as the car door was still open and soon everything went dark.

 

                Shawn had parked his car a couple blocks from Stuti’s house.  He had already returned the minivan and thought it risky to use his own car.  To lessen the risk, he decided not to leave the car on Stuti’s block assuming that like most Long Islanders, Stuti had a car.  The area Stuti lived in was heavily wooded so he hid in the woods till he saw a car pull into Stuti’s driveway.  He then crept behind the car and ducked behind the trunk until the door opened.  He then pounced out from behind the car and grabbed Stuti.  While lying across the driver seat, center counsel and passenger seat he realized that more planning should’ve went into this.  Unlike with Varuna, when Stuti’s body went limp he pushed her off him immediately.  He sat up and closed the driver’s door as he felt that was the most conspicuous thing.  He grabbed Stuti’s legs, which were on the driver’s seat and tossed them into the back seat contorting Stuti’s body so her upper body was lying on the center council and passenger seat and her legs were draped into the back.  He pushed the button to start the car and pulled out of the driveway and drove the couple blocks to his car.  He had already disabled the child release in the trunk and Stuti was still unconscious when he got there.  He pushed the button in his keys to open the trunk and pulled up next to it.  He raced out and around the car and pushed the trunk lid open, opened Stuti’s door and dragged her into the trunk.  Stuti was stirring when Shawn slammed the trunk shut.  He didn’t even bother to park Stuti’s car.  He scurried over to his car, got in and drove off.  It didn’t take long for Stuti to start banging from the trunk but with all the noise on a Long Island Street, there was no way anyone would hear her.  When Shawn got to his house he parked the car in the garage and opened the trunk.  Stuti hopped out of it and ran towards the door.  Shawn smiled for all Stuti really did was turn his back to him, which left her prone for the hold he has perfected so well on her and her sister.  He locked it on once again driving her to the ground and shortly thereafter, Stuti was unconscious again.  Shawn hoisted her to her feet and bent her over his shoulder lifting her up.  He carried her into the house and tied her limbs with duck tape and placed her on a bed.  He walked out of the room and across the hall to a workout room where he was about to meet someone.

                Varuna leaned against a pole exhausted.  She desperately wanted to take weight off her feet but given that her legs were strapped to the pole with duck tape with her hands taped behind the same pole behind her back, it was impossible to fully take her weight off her legs.  She had tried to negotiate with her captor the previous day to no avail.  He hadn’t touched her since physically forcing her against the pole and trapping her.  She found that odd but it gave her hope.  He kept talking about a surprise but Varuna wanted nothing that he had to offer.  All she could hope for was that Janilsa would contact the authorities when she hadn’t turned up and they would somehow find her.   She doubted that that would be how it played out but that seemed to be her best option.  Overpowering him seemed fruitless.  The guy walked in and she composed herself and said, “Hello.”

                Shawn smiled back at Varuna and said, “Hello”

                “Look, I’m not a very sensitive person.  I understand I upset you and I overreacted at the lounge and I’m sorry for that.  I don’t know how else I can make it up to you.  I think we’re even now so if you let me go, I won’t tell anyone about this and we can just go on with our lives.”

                “Do you really think I’m dumb enough to believe that?”

                “Why would I?  You didn’t strike me.  You left no marks, you rendered me unconscious in the most non-permanent way possible.  I’ve been here for a day now and you haven’t touched me.  That means you’re having second thoughts.  You probably think now it’s too late that you’ve gone too far.  I’m trying to tell you that you haven’t.  I’m physically and emotionally completely fine so no harm done.  I shoved you, I slapped you, you’ve physically and emotionally recovered from that.  You choked me out, I’ve physically recovered.  I started this fight, you got revenge.  Everything is square away.  I’ve always looked at Stuti like a daughter.  I’m nine years older than her, so I get a little overprotective.  I’m sorry for that.  You were right to react.  This can all go away if you let me go.”

                “I didn’t touch you because I was grooming you for a surprise, remember?”

                “It isn’t necessary whatever it is.”

                “You told me yesterday when I finished tying you up that if I was planning on making you scream I’d be disappointed because your family doesn’t scream.”

                Varuna started getting a little nervous.  She knew she had to choose her next words carefully.  She did in fact say that, but didn’t really want him to take the challenge.  She decided to just swallow her pride even though she was confident that no matter what he did to her, she would never give him the satisfaction of hearing her scream.  She said, “Yea, well, when you lose so decisively, you have to try to save face somehow.  It’s just talking shit, and it means exactly that, shit”

                Shawn smiled and said, “We’re about to find out.” As he left the room. 

                When he returned, Varuna’s eyes widened.  Shawn had Stuti by the hair and on her knees in front of him.  He put his right leg over Stuti’s right shoulder and placed it on the ground pushing Stuti against his groin.  He stroked her hair and face and said, “Now, to finish what I was working on before we were so rudely interrupted by you” staring at Varuna.

                Varuna took a deep breath, she had to remain calm but had trouble keeping the stress from her voice.  “What’s your name?”

                Shawn just smiled back and Stuti said, “Shawn”

                Shawn looked down at Stuti but said nothing.  Varuna said, “Shawn…” thinking that using his name would help personalize the situation, “she didn’t do anything to you.  This is a problem you have with me.  She‘s innocent here.  You don’t want to do this.  You want to hurt me not her.  She was nice to you.”

                “The best way to hurt you is to hurt her.”

                “But why would you want to do that?  You have me tied up and completely at your mercy.”

                Shawn smiled widely, “Yea, and how does that feel?”

                Varuna ignored the question and said, “Stuti….” Also thinking that the use of her name would make it more difficult to hurt her “did absolutely nothing to you.  You can’t take your anger with me out on her.  That’s not fair.”

                “I’m going to make your little innocent sister my bitch.  Then I’m going to make you my bitch.”

                “Let Stuti go, do what you want to me, I’m the one that hit you, not her.  I hurt you, I did that, Stuti did nothing” Varuna said more sternly.

                “You make an interesting point.  I should make it a little fairer.  I mean, I proved that I can easily choke you guys out.  I’ll make a rule that I can’t render you unconscious anymore.  I will try to strip Stuti.  Rule number two is that I can only remove one article of clothing per move.  This stops me from just getting one dominant position and removing all clothing.  If Stuti can fight me off and get away, then she goes free.  If Stuti wants to give up she has to tell me that she’s my bitch and remove her clothes.  I will then fuck the shit out of her as you watch on helplessly.”

                Varuna’s eyes narrowed and she glared at Shawn.  She said in a terse tone, “You’re much stronger than her.  This doesn’t seem fair.”

                “She’s fighting for much higher stakes than me.”

                Shawn shoved Stuti forward and she collapsed onto all fours.  He stepped back and said, “Get up.”

                Stuti slowly made her way to her feet.  She had never been in a fight in her life and didn’t like her chances in this one.  She looked at Varuna then back at Shawn and decided she’d try to negotiate.  She said, “Please don’t do this.”

                Shawn approached Stuti and she tensed up.  Shawn drove his shoulder into Stuti’s solar plexus and chopped at the back of her hamstrings tackling her to the ground.  He grabbed her right leg and yanked off her shoe and threw it at Varuna.  The shoe bounced off Varuna’s midsection as her limbs were unable to protect her body.  She struggled against her restraints but that did nothing.  Stuti was getting up slowly.  She waited for Shawn to approach and then grabbed him by the shoulders and lifted her right knee towards his groin but Shawn brought his leg in front of his crotch to block it.  He grabbed Stuti’s leg and slammed his fist onto her thigh.  Stuti turned away from Shawn limping and Shawn dove into her hamstring snapping Stuti’s upper body back before lying flat on her stomach.  He picked up her left leg and pulled off her shoe and again threw it at Varuna.  Varuna screamed out, “Leave her alone!”

                Shawn turned towards her and said, “I thought women in your family don’t scream.”

                If looks could kill, Shawn would have been dead on the spot with the look Varuna gave him.  Stuti was crawling away.  Shawn scurried over to her and grabbed her by the waist.  He picked her up and swung her legs around his head so they straddled his shoulders.  He threw her upper body towards the ground and sat down so Stuti fell between his legs.  He grabbed her right sock and pulled it off.  He walked over to Varuna and shoved the sock in her mouth.  She quickly spit it out and said, “STOP IT!”

                As Shawn watched Stuti writhe on the floor, he said, “This is your fault” to Varuna.

                Shawn lifted Stuti to her feet and she slapped at him weakly with her right hand.  Shawn caught her hand and twisted it turning Stuti around with the arm testing its elasticity as he raised it behind her back pushing down on her deltoids.  Stuti said, “No, no, no, please you’re hurting me”

                Stuti dropped to one knee and then both knees and leaned forward.  Shawn let go of her arm and grabbed her left foot pulling off the sock and throwing it at Varuna.  He said, “Well, we got the superficial clothes off, now for the fun part.”

Stuti got up holding her arm.  She faced Shawn but it was more waiting for what he’d do next.  Shawn grabbed her left arm and pulled her towards him sidestepping him and driving his right knee into her midsection.  He grabbed the bottom of her shirt and pulled it over her head and then bent her back over to secure her arms behind her back.  He grabbed the back of the shirt and yanked it back and forth forcing Stuti’s body to dart side to side until she dropped to her knees.  He pulled the shirt off and reached over her and grabbed her breasts, one in each hand over her bra.  Varuna shook her head from side to side and said repeatedly, “I’m going to kill you” in a barely audible tone.

                Shawn lifted Stuti to her feet but she was wobbly.  He brought his right arm around her midsection and used his left to scoop her legs up.  He held Stuti parallel to the ground and then dropped her to the ground falling with her so his arm smashed against her solar plexus.  He straddled her legs, unbuttoned her jeans and pulled them apart sending the zipper down.  He yanked off her jeans with Stuti weakly kicking her legs.  She turned onto her stomach once the jeans were clear off.  Both she and Varuna were crying.  Shawn looked up at Varuna and said, “How does it feel to be so helpless?  I mean the things you must want to do to me now?  We still even?  No, I think I’m winning now.  But you’re too fucking helpless to stop me.”

                Stuti turned towards Shawn and said, “I’ll do whatever you want, but please not in front of my sister.”

                “That’s the whole point to do it in front of her.  It’s her fault you’re here.  You’re in no position to negotiate.  If you give up, you have to tell me you’re my bitch and then I will do whatever I want to you whenever  and wherever I want and in front of whoever I want.”

                Stuti nodded her head.  She stared at Varuna and said, “I’m sorry.”

                Varuna’s eyes widened and she squirmed against her restraints aggressively but to no avail.  Stuti turned toward Sean still on all fours and said, “I’m your bitch.”

                Shawn smiled and said, “Prove it; strip”

                Stuti rolled to her back.  She unstrapped her bra and pulled it off and bent her legs lifting her upper pelvis to slide her panties off her.  He looked back at him and said, “Can I make a request sir?”

                Shawn said, “Sure” enjoying the use of ‘sir’ but sounding skeptical he’d agree.

                Stuti calmly said trying to keep the hurt out of her voice, “Use lubrication.”

                Shawn contemplated this for a second and Varuna said, “No, Stuti you can’t do this.  Get up, fight, don’t just give up.  Come on!”

                Stuti ignored her and Shawn said, “Yea, I guess that’s reasonable.  Roll onto your back so that I can restrain you so you don’t escape while I get some lubrication.”

                Stuti obeyed and Shawn duck taped her limbs together in the manner he did to Varuna in his van.  He left the room and got a jar of Vaseline and returned to find the girls in the same place.  Varuna tried talking Stuti out of it while they were gone but Stuti just repeated that she had no choice.  Shawn picked up Stuti’s panties and walked over to Varuna.  He walked behind the pole and wedged the fabric of the panties into Varuna’s mouth as she was saying, “What are you doing?”  He tied the panties behind her head and knotted it gagging her.  He walked over to Stuti and took out a pocket knife.  He cut the duck tape to free her limbs and told her to turn onto her stomach and spread her legs.  Stuti did so.  Shawn closed the knife and tossed it to the other end of the room.  He grabbed the jar and opened it.  He liberally applied the lubrication on Stuti’s groin, vagina and upper thighs.  Stuti looked up and said, “Thank you.”

                Shawn smiled and stripped himself of his clothing.  He knelt down and lied on Stuti driving his penis into her vagina.  Stuti moaned as he did so and Shawn humped her as his hands caressed her breasts and his mouth followed suit kissing her breasts, neck, face and mouth.  Stuti opened her mouth and kissed back for she was totally submitting herself to him.  After a bit, Shawn pulled out and said, “Turn around and pick yourself up on all fours.  At this point, both sisters were freely crying.  Shawn lunged his penis into Stuti’s vagina from behind and reached around massaging her breasts and pulling up to slap the side of Stuti’s butt.  He said, “Man, why did I even bother buying drinks and talking to you when this is so much easier and I get to the same place except with a  much higher success rate?”  He looked up at Varuna and said, “Man, it must suck watching me helplessly as I fuck your little sister. I mean you were supposed to protect her.  Why did you let this happen?  Remember, this is all your fault you cunt.”

                Shawn pulled out and grabbed the jar of Vaseline again and generously applied it to her anus.  He darted his penis inside of Stuti’s rectum and grabbed the side of her butt and pulled her back into him.  Stuti moaned louder screaming in pain and Shawn said, “Bark like a dog for me.”

                Stuti started barking and Shawn giggled and said, “Okay, you can stop, man you really are my bitch.”  Shawn pulled out and said, “lie flat”

                Stuti extended her limbs so she lay flat on her stomach.  Shawn hovered over her and drilled his penis hard into Stuti’s rectum repeatedly.  Blood trickled out of her rectum over her butt cheeks and onto the floor.  He collapsed on top of her and rolled off sitting next to her.  He rubbed her back with his right hand sliding it over her butt squeezing each cheek.  He opened his hand and lifted it slapping it hard against her butt cheeks before continuing to rub her legs, back and feet looking from Stuti’s backside to Varuna the whole time.  He grabbed Stuti by the sides and helped her to her feet.  He brought her over to a chair and sat down draping Stuti over his lap.  He grabbed her hair in his left hand and wrapped his right leg over Stuti’s legs interlocking his ankles to hold Stuti’s legs in place.  He pulled her hair and slapped with his right hand spanking Stuti.  After the slap he caressed her butt before doing it again.  After 10 slaps, he shoved her off him.  He said, “Get on your knees.”

                Stuti did so and Shawn stood in front of her slapping her in the face with his penis by gyrating his hips.  He said, “Suck it and swallow whatever comes out of it.”

                Stuti placed Shawn’s penis in her mouth and reached around grabbing his butt as she bobbed her head back and forth driving Shawn’s penis to the back of her mouth.  Shawn reached around with his right hand and grabbed Stuti’s hair and guided her head.  It didn’t take long for semen to explode out of his penis into Stuti’s mouth.  She quickly swallowed the semen and Shawn unceremoniously shoved her upper body back.  Stuti ‘s upper body bent back and then collapsed to the side.  She stared out with tear stained cheeks awaiting her next command.  Shawn got up and walked towards Varuna.  He removed the panties from her mouth and said, “I hope you’re satisfied with what you’ve done.”

                Varuna spit into Shawn’s face.  He wiped it off and spit back knowing that unlike him, Varuna couldn’t wipe it off.  He nodded his head and said, “You just don’t know how to quit do you?  Even after I did the impossible and got two members of your family to scream.”

                “It’s because of guys like you that I’m glad I’m gay.”

                Shawn smiled and said, “I thought you were a dyke but I didn’t know if that short girl was just your roommate” referring to Janilsa, who at 5’0” was a nine inches shorter than Varuna. 

                Shawn walked over to where he threw the knife and picked it up.  He looked at Varuna and said, “Now, I know I’ve enjoyed telling you how helpless you are so I’m going to throw you a bone.  I’m going to let you have the power.  It’s a great power.  God like in fact.  The power to determine who lives and who dies.  Now, you’ve seen everything I’ve done to your precious little innocent sister.” He walked over to Stuti as he said this and grabbed her by the hair lifting her up.  He snapped the knife out and put it against Stuti’s throat and said, “Do you think she should die so she doesn’t have to live with this experience haunting her or should she live?  Should I put her out of her misery?  I mean rape victims rarely lead normal lives.  Before you answer, however, keep this in mind.  I’m not letting you get off without sacrificing something.  You have to let me fuck you.  Fuck me and your sister lives.  Refuse to fuck me, and I’ll kill her so that she never has to relive this day in her head over and over.  It would be a mercy killing.”

                Stuti said, “Please, don’t do this.   I did everything you asked.”

                “It’s not up to me, it’s up to her” looking at Varuna

                Varuna said, “Don’t you realize you’ve already won?  Why let the power corrupt you, you got what you wanted.  It’s over.  Let us go.”

                “So, you’re saying no to me, yes to killing her?”

                “Not what I said.”

                “Well pick one”

                “Just take your victory.”

                “Your sister’s life is in your hands.  You said yourself she’s like your child.  Well you need to make decisions for her just like you would with a child.  Should she die never having to live this moment again or live with the hope that maybe she’ll recover mentally?  The physical wounds will heal, but the mental ones may last for the rest of her life, which is relative I guess at this point because it may end now if you will it.  What’s it going to be?  Nobody would blame you for being selfish.  You swore to be gay and the gay community looks down on gays that have cheat days and have heterosexual sex.  It’s just us three, I won’t think any less of you if you choose to keep me out of you and let your sister die mercifully.”

                Stuti said, “Varuna, please, I want to live.”

                Shawn looked down at her and said, “But then she’d have to fuck me.  You wouldn’t want her to go against her values would you?  I mean they are her identity.”

                Stuti ignored Shawn and said, “Varuna please”

                Varuna composed herself and said, “How do I know you’re not going to just fuck me and then kill us both?”

                “You don’t, but keep in mind, I could bond your sister, not like I need to at this point all the fight is out of her.  Then I could just rape you against that pole.  I mean I have a knife, I don’t even have to untie you, I could just cut your clothes off and have my way with you.”

                “Yea, but you want the surrender.”

                “I do”

                “Fuck you, but if I choose life, what does that entail?”

                “I untie your legs.  I remove your pants and panties.  You wrap your legs around me inserting me inside you.  I hump you a little bit.  I then pull out walk behind you and fuck you in the ass, since that’s the way you gays like it”

                “Do I get lubrication?”

                “Nope, that was a courtesy for your sister.  After all, she didn’t actually do anything wrong.” He said then smiled.

                Varuna thought it was a trick.  She seemed to be getting off pretty easily.  She knew there was no way she would ever say that he should kill Stuti.  She’d do whatever it took if it meant Stuti could live.  She just didn’t think under the circumstances that Shawn would let her off so easily.  She decided that it didn’t matter if she understood or not, the answer was obvious.  If he was lying, he was lying, she said, “Okay, I choose life.”

                “If I untie you and you attack me in any way, your sister dies.  If after I’m done with you, you attack me once all your limbs are free, your sister dies.  Do you understand me?”

                “Yes”

                Shawn kissed Varuna’s neck and waited for his penis to become erect again.  He cut the duck tape between Varuna’s legs and Varuna wrapped her legs around him.  Shawn put his hands underneath Varuna’s shirt and caressed her breasts over her bra as he continued kissing her neck.  He pulled out and slid behind Varuna and pulled her into him driving his penis into her rectum.  He groped her midsection and lifted her shirt over her breasts ducking his head around her arms and sucking on her breasts.  He said, “Now tell me that you’re my bitch.”

                Varuna said matter of factly with no expression, “I’m your bitch”

                Shawn said, “Now remember, when I cut you loose, you can only go to Stuti.  If you attack me, she dies.”

                Varuna nodded her head and Shawn said, “Man, I pulled off fucking sisters on the same day, one was a dyke no less.  I’m pretty sure I’m the only one to ever fuck you and Stuti.  And I did it from both the front and behind.  Damn, this is a good notch in my belt.”

                Shawn cut the duck tape leading from Varuna’s arms to the poll and Varuna crawled toward Stuti crying.  She cradled her in her arms and said, “I’m so sorry”

                Varuna was not paying attention to Shawn.  Shawn left and came back quickly with a hose.  He pressed the nozzle sending water towards Varuna and Stuti forcefully.  The water pushed back blood that had emulated from Varuna’s vagina and anus as well as Stuti’s.  Stuti didn’t even bother putting her hands up to block the stream but Varuna did.  She was in much better shape than Stuti both physically and mentally.  Shawn said, “Now there’s none of my DNA on you. Varuna I purposely took it easy on you so that you know that Stuti suffered more because of you.  I didn’t want to give you the satisfaction that at least you both were hurt in the same way.”

                Varuna ignored him.  At first, she was going to the cops but now she wasn’t.  She wanted revenge.  He stopped the stream and said, “You’re both going to get into the trunk of my car.  I’m going to take you closer to your home so you don’t know where I live.  Shawn helped both Varuna and Stuti into the trunk of his car and drove them circuitously to their parent’s house.  He stopped the car a couple blocks from their house and popped the trunk making sure it wasn’t the same street that he parked when he abducted Stuti.  He popped the trunk and helped the girls out of the trunk.  He then got in and sped off.  It didn’t take Varuna long to realize where she was.  She grew up in this neighborhood so knew it well.  She helped Stuti to their parent’s house as she still didn’t have her cell phone.  Her mom called 911 and they were rushed to the hospital to deal with their wounds.  It didn’t take long for the cops to show up and Varuna did all the talking saying that they didn’t know who did this to them.  She wasn’t willing to go to law enforcement for this one.  This was personal; she wanted some nice cold revenge.  As the doctors tended to her, Varuna thought about who to let in.  Obviously Janilsa but she needed a small group of people so they wouldn’t go to the cops.  She contemplated Janilsa’s cousins but when they didn’t show up to their wedding, she didn’t know if she could rely on them.  Varuna didn’t know many straight men but one of Janilsa’s friend’s Larry was the only straight guy she called a friend.  It took Janilsa nine years to be comfortable enough with Larry to stay at his apartment and it was only after Varuna told her to.  He considered himself asexual but Varuna doubted this because of his affinity to take body shots off girl’s butts.  It’s true he had only done it three times, but his admission that he enjoyed it was enough for her to doubt.  Still though, Janilsa backed up that he had not had sex in over 12 years.  So it seems like when he said he didn’t like sex or blowjobs, he wasn’t lying.  He also could be easily manipulated into doing this without calling the cops.  He was a loner that lived alone.  That means there was nobody he felt the need to tell everything.  Janilsa also confirmed that he didn’t lie so if you got him to say he wouldn’t say anything, he wouldn’t.  Larry used double speak and vague responses to make someone misinterpret when he didn’t want to reveal things but Varuna was a lawyer, she dealt with that on a daily basis.  There was no way she’d fall for any of Larry’s verbal tricks.  Yes, it seemed that was the best candidate.

                The second part of finding Shawn was actually pretty easy.  Shawn assumed that Stuti’s cell phone was in her purse when he abducted her.  He thought that since he left the purse in Stuti’s car when he switched her to his car that the phone couldn’t be traced to him.  Instead, it was sitting in his trunk after falling out of Stuti’s pocket as she squirmed trying to pound her way out of the trunk.  Janilsa called Larry as she had the most influence over him given that they had been friends since they were 19-years-old.  It didn’t take much convincing for Larry to agree.  Larry hadn’t been in a fight in a while but he decided to give it a shot.  He got a ride from Janilsa in her car to Shawn’s house unsure of what his plan was.  It had been three months since Stuti and Varuna were raped so Shawn was no longer on alert as he was shortly after it happened.  On some days, he wondered why he let the girls go, but most of the time he decided he didn’t want to figure out how to get rid of the bodies.  Larry decided that there wasn’t going to be anything scientific or stealthy about his plan.  He walked up to the garage and threw a rock through the window on the door.  He reached inside and unlocked the garage door and walked inside.  He hid behind some things he assumed Shawn kept for storage to leave more room in the house.  If there was one thing Larry was good at it was daydreaming.  He ran stories in his head and daydreamed for hours whenever he knew he had to wait a while.  This was one of those times.  Larry’s daydreaming came to an abrupt end when he was startled by the sound of the garage door opening.  Shawn was home.  As Shawn pulled into the garage, Larry waited till the car’s headlights went out.  He snuck behind the car and when Shawn exited and shut the door, Larry darted from behind grabbing Shawn by the hair and slamming his head into the back wall of the garage.  Shawn took his knife out and Larry did the same as he always carried a knife.  Larry had read that real knife fighters don’t hold knives like a sword but rather they hold the hilt with the blade down.  This leads their fist still open to punch and a simple flick of the wrist to cut with your blade.  It in a sense made your hand into a dual threat weapon.  He figured this may not be the best time to test this theory but as he had never actually been in a knife fight, regardless of what strategy he used, it would be the first time utilizing it when his life depended on it.  He just had to hope that the author really did write what he knew. Shawn brandished the blade and Larry looked on unfazed.  Shawn moved forward and swung the knife toward Larry’s neck; he ducked under it and stepped behind Shawn slamming his hand back stabbing Shawn in the back of his left knee, one of the most painful spots to be stabbed.  Shawn dropped the knife and fell to the ground grabbing his knee writhing in pain.  Larry took the knife and stabbed Shawn again in the right Achilles Heel, the most painful spot to be stabbed.  He thought back to the book and told himself that although he was still skeptical, holding the blade the way he did set him up perfectly for the blow he struck.  He didn’t know if it was luck or skill but it didn’t matter; it worked.  He walked over to Shawn’s knife and picked it up and put it in his pocket.  He closed his knife and clipped it back to his waist.  He walked over to Shawn and helped him to his feet draping him over his shoulder.  Regardless of how tough you are, a puncture wound to the knee or Achilles Heel will force the fight out of you.  Shawn had both.  Larry saw Shawn’s keys on the ground from when he dropped them after Larry slammed him into the wall.  He bent over and picked them up without dropping Shawn.  He unlocked the door and carried Shawn inside.  When he got into a room, he pulled Shawn’s legs to his chest and shoved his upper body forward snapping Shawn’s upper body to the ground slamming the back of his head onto the ground.  Larry took out his cell phone and called Janilsa.  He looked at Shawn and said, “Okay, it’s safe to come in now.”

 

                Janilsa, Stuti and Varuna were parked a block away.  For reasons unknown to Varuna, Stuti insisted on driving alone so they took two cars there.  Varuna, Janilsa and Larry went in Janilsa’s car and Stuti drove hers alone.  They agreed that they would wait for Larry’s signal.  If they didn’t hear from him then they were to go home.  Larry had no problem sacrificing himself so they could be safe for he was old fashioned and thought that’s what men should do.  They waited impatiently for the call trying to pass the time.  After a while, Stuti left her car to get in their car so she had someone to talk to.  Finally, the call came and Janilsa, Varuna and Stuti ran out of the car and towards Shawn’s house.  Varuna knocked on the door and Larry answered it.  Varuna and Janilsa walked in with a diabolical smile but Stuti had a stoic expression on her face.  Varuna was wearing Stiletto heels and Janilsa had steel toed boots on.  Varuna scurried over to Sean and kicked him square in the testicles and then stepped on them for good measure.  Janilsa ran around to the side of him and kicked and stomped away at his midsection.  Varuna walked to the other side of him and kicked him repeatedly.  Varuna noticed blood on the ground and nudged Shawn onto his stomach.  She saw the puncture wounds on his left hamstring and right Achilles.  Varuna stepped on the wound behind his knee and Janilsa stepped on the wound behind his ankle.  The result was quite predictable, Shawn screamed out at the top of his lungs.  Varuna laughed and said, “You made me scream, I made you scream.”

                Shawn screamed out, “I’m sorry.”

                Varuna laughed and said, “Yea, way too late for that!”

                Varuna turned toward Stuti who was leaning against the wall watching the carnage.  Larry had already come over to her and asked her if she wanted to leave.  Stuti said she didn’t so Larry waited with her.  Larry contemplated leaving but he knew he wouldn’t forgive himself if Shawn overpowered them.  The way things were looking though, he didn’t think that was going to happen.  He was going to leave but then remembered he caught a ride there.  He wasn’t going to pay for an Uber so he waited.  Varuna and Janilsa had Shawn’s pants down and Varuna had a knife to his penis threatening to cut it off so he could never rape anyone ever again.  She turned towards Stuti and said, “Stuti, don’t you want to join in on the fun?  You can do the honors of relieving him of his member he misused.”

                “No thanks”

                “Varuna got up and stomped on Shawn’s solar plexus.  Her heel broke skin but most of her weight was on the toes so didn’t penetrate too deeply to cause life threatening damage.  She said, “That’s for fucking up my sister so bad that she can’t even enjoy this!”

                Stuti said nothing and Varuna walked up to her and said, “Stuti, what’s wrong?”

                “I think that if we do this to him we’re just as bad as he is”

                “No, Stuti.  We’re not.  Don’t even say that.  We didn’t deserve what happened to us.  He did.”

                “Who judges that Varuna?”

                “It’s obvious”

                “You’re a lawyer, isn’t this why our justice system has 12 strangers?  There’s too much emotional attachment.  And in what courtroom is the sentencing to get stabbed and beaten?  Yea, we have the death penalty but it’s a quick lethal injection to avoid suffering.  This…” pointing to Shawn, “is suffering.  No court of law has a sentencing like this for a reason.  This includes rapists.  You acted as judge, jury and executioner, and there’s a reason our justice system never has the same person be all three.”

                Varuna glared at her sister.  She knew the argument was sound but she didn’t want to hear it.  Varuna said, “You’re right, but it does make me feel better.”

                “I know it does, that’s why I’m not telling you not to do it.  But, for me, I think it’s better to kill him with kindness.” 

                Varuna looked at Stuti like she had two heads.  She couldn’t believe what came out of her mouth.  Stuti continued, “Look, I’ve been trained to help people.  Save them.  When they’re injured, I’m the one that makes them better.  I give life, I don’t take it.  I relieve physical suffering and harm, I don’t cause it.  That’s what the Hippocrates Oath is I took.  Don’t use my knowledge for bad.”

                Varuna said, “Well I didn’t take that oath.”

                “So do your thing.  Let me know when you’ve had your fill.”

                Varuna walked over to Shawn and kicked him again.  Janilsa had eased up on the assault.  She was becoming tired.  Varuna looked down at Shawn and spit in his face.  She turned towards Stuti and said, “So what now?”

                “I want some time alone with him” was Stuti’s reply. 

                Janilsa and Varuna looked back and forth from each other.  Larry approached Stuti and said, “I’ll wait behind the door.  If you want me to come in, say, “You can go now, I have my car I’ll drive home” if you really want me to go say, “Help me!”

                Stuti said, “So, we’re playing opposites?”

                “He’ll hurt you more if you say, ‘help me’ being able to say that means you really are in control.  If he was in control, he’d want you to say I can go.”

                “That makes sense but my medical opinion is that he’s in no condition to resist me.”

                “I would agree.”

                “Will you help me move him?”

                “Sure”

                Varuna and Janilsa didn’t bother asking what they were talking about.  Larry dragged Shawn by the arms to the next room and Stuti asked him to put Shawn on the bed.  She took off her small backpack that Larry seemed to notice for the first time and pulled out a bag of fluids and a tube leading to a needle.  She hung the wire over a closet door and tapped her finger against Shawn’s left wrist exposing the vein.  She stuck the needle in and said, “Don’t worry, it’ll just be a pinch.”  She stuck the IV in him and said, “Now, something for the pain” taking a syringe out of her bag and squeezing it letting out fluid to make sure she doesn’t put air in his veins, thus killing him.  She stuck the syringe in the entrance part of the tube and emptied the contents.  She said in a soothing voice, “There, that’s better.”

                She turned toward Larry and said, “You can go now”

                Varuna had a look of disgust on her face as she was watching the whole thing.  Janilsa said, “Varuna, maybe we should give them some time alone” actually admiring Stuti for being the better person.

                Varuna reluctantly turned away and walked out the front door towards her car with Janilsa.  Larry said, “Well, they’re my ride, but remember what we talked about.”

                “I know”

                Larry shut the door and Stuti said, “Help me!”

                Larry walked toward the front door of the house and opened it.  He shut it without walking through it.  Maybe Stuti was being a little overzealous.  He saw Stuti open the door and peer through it and said, “Why are you still here?  We had a deal didn’t we?”

                “Walk towards me”

                Stuti rolled her eyes, walked out the door leading to the room Shawn was in and closed the door.  She said, “See, if Shawn really was in control, he’d be out here right now.”

                Larry nodded and opened the door walking through it this time before he shut it.  Stuti walked back into the room with Shawn and immediately her stoic demeanor changed into something much darker.  She looked at Shawn and immediately pushed on his sternum to a gasp of air from Shawn.  Stuti said, “Sorry, I had to get Larry out of here and it took longer than expected.  As you may have noticed, the thing in the syringe wasn’t morphine or codeine or anything like that.  It’s a paralytic the we administer to people before putting a breathing a tube in them.  It shuts down voluntary and involuntary movements.  Now, when we use it, the patient is unconscious but since the gag reflex is involuntary and it’s hard to get a breathing tube down someone when they’re involuntarily gagging, it makes our job easier with no harm done to the patient.  The antidote works instantaneously.  In fact, I have it with me.”

Stuti pulled out another syringe, which really was the reversing agent for the paralytic that was also in the fluid in the bag hanging over the closet to slowly administer it to keep him paralyzed.  The main problem with the paralytic is that the diaphragm expanding to allow air into the lungs is also an involuntary movement.  This was suppressed so the only way for him to breathe is if Stuti pushes on his chest or puts in a breathing tube. 

Stuti took the syringe with the reversing agent and picked up Shawn’s right hand.  She opened his hand and placed the syringe inside.  She then put the syringe into the entrance section of the tube.  She said, “Now, all you got to do is push the plunger down and you’ll regain movement.  In the meantime, I’ll address your wounds.”

Stuti set up her phone so that every minute it beeped and she pressed down on Shawn’s chest letting him inhale and exhale.  At first, the beeping seemed to come quickly but Shawn was beginning to think these beeps were getting further and further apart as his body wanted to pant from the deprivation of oxygen.  Stuti dressed all the wounds and wiped them clean.  When she was done, she said, “There, all better.  The wounds won’t hurt you now.”

Although Sean’s eyes were open, he couldn’t see as they were dried out from not being able to blink.  This was not an oversight.  Stuti stripped herself of her clothes and stood there naked.  She said, “Man, what would you do to me now if you had your strength?  I mean, I’m already naked.  You would ravage my body again and again and again.  Probably make what you did to me before seem like a massage am I right?  Well, all you got to do is push that plunger and you can.  You know how all those people talk about mind over matter.  If you just will it hard enough, you can overcome your physical limitation and beat any disease.  Oh, the spiritual world like all those movies.  Come on, think hard, utilize that 90% of your brain that everyone knows is dormant and click the plunger.  You can do this, I have faith in you.”

Shawn just stared back though he couldn’t see.  Stuti said, “It’s a shame you can’t see that I actually am naked but I don’t even want to give you that satisfaction.”            

When Stuti first pressed on Shawn’s chest, he tried to mouth the words “I’m going to kill you” but you can’t say that in one breath.  Now, he had relegated to just ‘Sorry’ but that was two syllables and she only pressed long enough for one.  It also never came out clearly so she couldn’t understand anyway.  Stuti continued, “Now, you kept saying something to Varuna.  What was it?  You asked her something while you were raping me.  I can’t remember.  Oh yea, you said, ‘How does it feel to be so helpless’  Well, she doesn’t know.  I don’t know.  After all, we could scream, we could beg, we could write in pain.  We could moan, hell, we could breathe for God’s sake.  We could do so many things that everyone takes for granted.  Everyone except you that is, after all, you can do none of those things.  Hell, you can’t even blink!  So, now I ask you, how does it feel to be so helpless?” 

                Stuti paused as if Shawn would actually respond and then said, “Right, you can’t talk.  Like, physically incapable of talking.  I bet if you could though, you’d say anything I want just to make it stop.  I could get you to say that you’re my bitch if I wanted to am I right?”

                Another pause and Shawn lay motionless.  “Nod if you agree; oh wait, yea, you can’t even do that.  Damn you really are helpless.  Newborn babies can do more than you.  Wait I have an idea”

                Stuti pulled down Shawn’s pants and boxers.  She rolled him onto his side and took a small rod and jammed it into his anus.  She then rolled him back on his back as the rod was forced deeper into his rectum.  It wasn’t long enough to cause life threatening damage but it made him very uncomfortable.

                This taunting continued as Stuti slowly and methodically taunted him always compressing his chest every minute.  Sometimes she compressed a few times when there wasn’t a forceful gasp of air.  Shawn still had the syringe with the paralytic reversal but whether in his hand or in California, it would help him the same.  He couldn’t use it.    Stuti shut off her phone.  She realized one mistake; she was parked a block away.  It was a far distance but she couldn’t bring what she had in for it was large and hard to hide from Janilsa, Varuna and Larry.  She decided she had no choice, she had to risk it.  She got dressed, compressed Shawn’s chest a few times and sprinted through the door to her car.  She opened the trunk and pulled out a large machine and sprinted with it back to the house.  She walked in, put the machine on a night stand and compressed Shawn’s chest.  She was relieved that air exhaled, he was still alive.  She took a tube and placed it down Shawn’s throat into his lungs.  She turned on the breathing machine that she stole from the hospital she worked at and said, “Bye Shawn, see you in the morning”

                Stuti went to her car and drove off.  It was the weekend but she already took Monday off work.  She came back the next day and unhooked the breathing machine.  She started the one minute timer and said, “Now, we’re supposed to give a patient something to drink right after we take them off that machine.  It makes patients so thirsty that a lot of them choose death than have to go through that again.  I mean, they’re also in bad physical shape that they need the machine in the first place but, well, you know, you’re feeling it now.  I’ve never felt it so you know better than me.  After all, I have no idea how it feels to be as helpless as you.”

                Stuti spent all day oscillating between taunting Sean and watching stuff on her Ipad.  She did put drops in his eyes to lubricate them so he could see her sitting naked.  In any other circumstance, she’d be vulnerable but she wasn’t because Shawn was helpless, as she kept reminding him.  She was compressing his chest like clockwork.  When it got late, she hooked up the breathing machine and left again.  This continued till Monday.  Even though she left his house at a decent hour and came back in the late morning, there were bags under her eyes from a lack of sleep.  She walked in on Monday and said in a cheery voice, “Hey Shawn, today is the day you die.”

                Shawn wondered if Stuti was able to understand that since midway through day two when he knew he wouldn’t get a drink, he oscillated each chest compression with the words “kill” and “me.”  It didn’t seem like Stuti understood but now he wasn’t sure.  He actually welcomed death over what he had gone through the last three days.  Stuti said in a very catty tone similar to a stereotypical high school blond, “Now, I’m a science girl so I like my experiments.  We’re going to see how long you can hold your breath before you die.  Obviously, it’s not a minute.  I’m going to compress your chest starting from a minute and five seconds increasing the in between by five second until your dead.  You ready?” Stuti smiled wide at the end.   “You know Shawn, you really shouldn’t have messed with a doctor.  The same knowledge we use to save lives, we know how to torture better than any enhanced interrogator.  Water boarding? HA, this is so much worse.”

                Shawn still had the syringe in his hand with the reversal agent.  He did try to will his fingers to press the plunger like Stuti taunted but it didn’t work.  Stuti did exactly what she said she would do.  Turns out Shawn could go over two minutes without breathing but not more than two and half.  Stuti had her two fingers on his ceratoid artery as she looked at her watch every time.  She felt the pulse stop and smelled the excrement as his bowels could no longer hold it in.  Shawn was dead.  It was nighttime and she called Larry.  She hadn’t spoken much to Varuna, Janilsa and Larry the past three days.  They called to check up on her after the first day and she sounded cheery so they were convinced she was okay.  They all applauded her behind her back for her strength in not seeking revenge.  Now it was time to tell them the truth. 

                Larry looked at his phone shocked to see Stuti’s name.  He answered frantically but was calmed by the calm in Stuti’s voice.  She didn’t seem stressed.  When Stuti asked Larry to come to Shawn’s house he was really confused.  He went wondering if this was some Stockholm Syndrome thing.  He called Varuna and Janilsa and they said they had gotten the same call.  Larry went over on high alert.  Varuna and Janilsa were more curious than anything.  Larry got to the house first.  As he approached the house, he looked around him searching for a sneak attack.  The problem was, Larry was very oblivious.  He knocked on the door and Stuti answered it smiling.  He shoved the door till it banged against the wall in case someone was hiding behind it.  Stuti noticed and said, “You just always think I’m in trouble don’t you?”

                “No, now, I think you’re working with Shawn to get revenge on me.”

                Stuti chuckled.  “Oh Larry, you’re so paranoid, come with me”

                Stuti was fully clothed now and Larry followed her cautiously.  She opened the door and Larry saw Shawn on the bed.  He looked over at the breathing machine and asked, “What the fuck happened here?”

                “I tortured him starting from when you finally walked out the door till now.  He’s dead” she said very matter-of-factly with no hint of remorse or emotion in her voice. 

                Larry said, “Oh” because he was speechless

                “I need you to help me move the body”

                “Where are we moving it?”

                “You’ll see”

                Larry nodded.  He couldn’t remember why he was helping her.  Stuti and him weren’t friends.  He grabbed Shawn’s legs and pulled them towards him.  As he did that, Stuti said, “Wait, stop”

                Larry let go and Stuti put on rubber gloves.  She said, “Roll him over for a second”

                Larry grabbed Shawn by the shoulder and elbow and pulled towards him rolling him to his side.  Stuti grabbed the rod, which had feces stains on it and pulled it out unleashing a lot more droppings that the rod was helping hold in.  Larry gagged and dry heaved and left the room.  Stuti walked past him and pulled off the gloves and nonchalantly threw them in the garbage.  She said, “Oh come on, don’t be squeamish.  Don’t worry, I’ll clean up all the shit.”

                Larry glared at Stuti and said, “Stuti, are you okay?”

                “Never better” she said with a smile. 

                There was a knock on the door and Larry rushed to it happy not to be alone with Stuti anymore.  Janilsa and Varuna walked in.  Stuti said cheerily “Hey sis”

                Varuna looked from Larry to Stuti and said, “What’s going on here?”

                Larry said, “So you didn’t know about this either?”

                Varuna looked at Larry confused and said, “Know about what?  Why are we at Shawn’s house?”

                Larry said, “Go into the room I dragged him into three days ago.”            

                Varuna walked over and opened the door and her entire body bent forward as her eyes and mouth widened.  She closed the door and turned towards them and said, “Is he dead?”

                Larry nodded and Varuna and Janilsa looked at Stuti in a way they never have.  Varuna said, “Stuti?  Is there something you want to tell us?”

                Stuti said, “Not really, just a favor I need from you”

                “And what would that be?” Varuna said sarcastically

                “I need you to help me get rid of the body”

                “And how do we do that Stuti?” keeping the same sarcasm

                “Well, the last three days I’ve spent the days and early evenings taunting him and torturing him and at night, I’ve been digging a large hole just over the Tappen Zee bridge (leads to upstate New York).  There’s not many people around up there so I had privacy.  Nobody has caught me in three days.  The hole is big now but I don’t have three days to throw the dirt back on.  He’s also going to be really heavy, so I need your help”

                Varuna said, “Well, you know I’d do anything for you little sis, I’m in.”

                Stuti looked at Larry and he said, “Well, despite my shock when I first got here.  I definitely think he deserved it so yea, I’m in”

                Janilsa said, “Fuck it, let’s do this”

                Stuti laid out a king size bed sheet on the ground.  Larry lifted Shawn’s legs and Varuna and Stuti grabbed an arm and lifted Shawn off the bed and Janilsa helped guide his body on the sheet.  Larry wrapped the sheet over him and duck taped the pieces together.  Varuna grabbed the head, Larry grabbed the legs and Stuti and Janilsa each grabbed a side and they hoisted the sheet with Shawn up and carried it outside.  Stuti popped the trunk of her car and they placed him inside.  Stuti went back inside and Varuna, Janilsa and Larry stared at each other confused where she was going.  Stuti put on rubber gloves and wrapped the sheet on the bed over the droppings.  She then took out the garbage bag containing her gloves and tied it shut.  She duck taped the four corners together trapping the excrement and brought it out to her car where Varuna, Janilsa and Larry were still talking.  They were discussing whether Stuti was okay but all of them seemed to agree that they didn’t really have a problem with this.  Then they discussed if that made them bad people.  Stuti popped the trunk again and threw the sheet and the garbage bag inside.  She got in the driver’s seat and said, “Come on, get in”

                Larry got in the front seat and Janilsa and Varuna got in the back.  There were four shovels lying across the back seat that they picked up and put on their laps.  Stuti was prepared.  Stuti drove them to her spot, which was about a forty minute drive away.  She parked the car on the side of the road and popped the trunk.  They carried Shawn’s body first in the sheet the same way they brought it in the trunk.  Larry then took the sheet of excrement and Stuti took the garbage bag and carried it to the hole and tossed it in with the body.  This time all four went back to the car to get the shovels, or so three of them thought.  Stuti went back to the trunk and pulled out a gas can.  Larry, Varuna, and Janilsa all had a shovel in their hands when Stuti emerged.  Stuti said, “What? Our DNA may be on the sheets and garbage bag.  We need to destroy evidence.”

                Varuna said, “How much thought did you put into this Stuti?”

                “A lot”

                “Yea, it seems the way.”

                Larry grabbed the fourth shovel and carried two of them to the hole.  It was deep enough in the woods that nobody would see them driving by on the street.  Stuti poured the gas in the hole which was six feet deep and long enough that Shawn’s 6’2” body easily fit inside though they did have to bend his knees.  Stuti had used a bucket and step ladder when the hole was too big to easily toss the dirt out of it.  Stuti lit a match and tossed it in the hole.  The entire hole burst into flames lighting their faces and reflected off their eyes.  Larry grabbed the shovel and dug into the dirt mount surrounding the hole and tossed dirt into the hole.  The others followed suit.  Larry walked behind the mound and threw his body into it knocking a lot of dirt into the hole dying the flames down.  The three girls followed suit and quickly the mound was too small to make this maneuver effective so they started using the shovels again.  With the four of them working, it filled pretty quickly and they patted it down.  They were all panting at the end of it and splinters were in their hands.  They walked back to the car and Stuti got into the driver seat again and drove back.  She got back to Shawn’s house and said, “Let me see all your hands.  Larry you first”

                Larry put out his hands from the passenger seat and Stuti turned on the lights.  She took a pair of tweezers from her first aid kid and a lighter.  She burned the ends of the tweezers and expertly and gently broke Larry’s skin to pull out the splinters in his hands.  She did the same to Janilsa and Varuna and then did herself.  She said, “Sorry, I should have thought to get gloves.”

                Larry said, “Didn’t you get any splinters when you dug the hole?”

                “I had gloves” was all Stuti said

                Varuna said, “So, why didn’t you now?”

                “I was in a hurry to get out of there and forgot.  Before, I was just digging a hole; nothing illegal about that.  But this time, I actually had a dead body.  Every moment was precious.”

                The other three people accepted this explanation.  Stuti said to all of them.  “Thank you so much for helping me, I know it was a lot for you guys to process all at once.”

                Varuna was the first to speak and said, “You could have told us.  I mean, making us believe there was something wrong with us for wanting revenge was mean.  I second guessed myself and started feeling guilty.  But what you did was much worse than what we did.”

                Stuti looked at Varuna and said, “How do you feel now?”

                Varuna said, “Like I got my sister back.”

                They both smiled.  Stuti said, “Exactly”

                Varuna said, “Still could have told us”

                “I couldn’t let you try to talk me out of it the way I tried to talk you out of it.  Larry was already second guessing helping us.”

                Larry said, “Yea but I always came to the conclusion he deserved it.  Just like I do now.  I don’t really care that you didn’t tell me, you barely know me.”

                “I know, and I’m really sorry I put you in this position.”

                “Don’t mention it, it’s over now.”

                Varuna said, “Yea”

                Janilsa said, “I’m not sure what we’re talking about.  We all agree the scumbag deserved to die.  Fuck him.”

                The other three people smiled and Stuti said, “Yea, fuck ‘em, you guys can go home.  Larry can I stay at your place tonight?”

                “Sure but why?” he said confused.  Stuti had never been to his apartment before

                “I don’t want that scumbag to be the last person to fuck me the way he did.”

                Varuna said, “Whoa, TMI (Too much information)”

                Stuti turned to them and said, “I told you you could go home.  Are you really going to play the big overprotective sister right now?”

                Varuna got the implication.  She never did stop blaming herself for what happened to Stuti and her.  Stuti had never insinuated she thought it was Varuna’s fault until this moment.  Varuna said, “I don’t need to hear it, Stuti”

                “Then go home”

                “Fine” Varuna said angrily “Steph, let’s go”

                Janilsa and Varuna got out of their car and walked to theirs and drove off.  Stuti turned to Larry and he said, “You know I’m asexual?”

                “I’ll let you do the body shot off my ass”

                That was the only sexual thing Larry enjoyed.  Larry was unaware Stuti knew this.  He said, “Still, I’m not sure it’s a good idea.”

                Stuti said, “I’m not hitting on you.  I don’t want it to be pleasurable.  It’s just the last thing I need to get over him.  If I offer it to some other guy they’ll get too excited.  They’ll think I’m hitting on them.  You don’t like sex.  You’re perfect for this.  You won’t get attached.”

                Larry said, “I feel like if I agree to this, then I’m just some horny fuck.”

                Stuti smiled and said, “You’re not doing anything wrong.”

                Larry said, “Fine, but if you change your mind, don’t be afraid to speak up.”

                “Deal”

                Stuti drove Larry back to Manhattan where he lived and parked her car.  They went inside and Stuti immediately stripped her clothes.  Larry kissed her and she kissed back.  Soon it was Stuti telling Larry what to do to her.  Larry went through all the motions that Shawn put Stuti through.  When they were done, Stuti got dressed and walked back to her car and drove back to her parents’ house.  The plan worked, Stuti got her closure and forgot the whole thing.  Since Larry didn’t see Stuti very often, he didn’t have to deal with any awkwardness.  He and Janilsa remained friends and Varuna chose to ignore what happened between him and her sister.  She didn’t exactly buy the whole need for closure thing that Stuti sold but she let it happen at the time and she had to just let the past be the past.  There didn’t seem to be a future with them so she was content with leaving it where it lied.  None of the four of them ever heard about Shawn again.